Blaaaah!

Some days back I felt like calling one of my old friends on phone.I hadnt called her in like ages! the first thing i expected from her was her signature squeal or a loud n long "hello". But the first thing she said was "HOW COULD YOU FORGET MY BDAY?!" n i just couldnt speak. ow wait. she didnt LET ME speak for like 10 minutes. she was *accusing* me of forgetting her bday n how she was all hurt 'cos i didnt call her. n in my mind i was going like "what the hell man? was this what i called her for?"
the call left me thinking of how many bdays i forgot the last 2 months. oh-so-many! :O
I've never had this kinda thing before and i've no idea how this happened to me. But i think i've got this weird syndrome-thingy of forgetting people's b'days. :O 'cos just a few months back, i used to be ultra-perfect with all these dates! i used to be all smug n over confident with dates which was something for which my bestie totally envied me. but now i dunno what happened..has her *ghost* crept into me?! omg. now that'd be like the last-est thing i'd ever want! :O :O
 its not just one or two bdays. i've been forgetting every single bday there is. :O
when i met geeth at chalakudy, first thing she punched me n said "you forgot my bday!" and then two of my other cousins were like "she forgot ours too". n what do i say to dat?! :(:(  i tried to tell them about the syndrome-thingy..but ofcourse they didnt understand..noone ever understands..omg! :(:(
and this time i guess i was the last  to call for geethu's bday this year. just imagine. now geeth's someone who waits for bdays,buy gifts n all that. i was stunned when she told me about the way she planned for my bday..the gift n all. i mean,how come she remembers?! :O
so yea i called her at like 10 at night for her bday this year. i knew i was soooo *dead* but  i was hoping kitty'd be there,calling after me. but this time she wasnt there too.
I've been annoying the hell out of people by forgetting their bdays that some people are now tired of being annoyed with me. :P  blah.
I casually glanced at today's date while typing this here and i just realised its october the 2nd..which means i forgot my cousin sister's bday yesterday! :O
Oh crap..not again! :(

the li'l things u do.. :)

'cos i'll love you.. :) always.

Well,i dont really know how to start this off..but thank you so so so so much Linda for calling me yesterday and makin' me feel so damn special. :') I love ya girl.

the call made me thinkin' about how much i miss her.

Linda is my childhood friend at my native place n we studied together for like 6 years. We shared loads n loads of things as kids..the first thing that come to my mind when i think about her are pancakes! :D omg! her mom makes the best pancakes ever.<3* yumm! 

N i still remember all those li'l things she used to do for me.. she wrote li'l notes for me to read in class. with those li'l drawings in the corners.. :) n she always always let me take the bigger piece of the chocolate..:P

She used to have many many pups [seven or somethin' i guess.. :P ] at home with the weirdest of names. Names like Russo,Veedo n all that.. :P so gross! But yea they were so so cute but i hated them. all of them. :/

N yesterday when i was on phone with her,i heard this barking sound n i was like  "Russo still sounds the same!" n she said "Russo? :/ He left us the year before last..this is her pup!" Omg. N then i realized  how much i've been missing.! [not that i care about her stewpid stewpid dog.. :P ] 

I totally felt bad for not talkin' to her for like ages. 

Both of us have changed so so much from how we were in 8th grade.. but i still miss the 8th grade madness n fun n playin' hide n seek n everything. :( Aww..i miss you so so so muchh! 

Birthday Blues.^^

Birthdays..
hmm..everyone likes birthdays..
Guess who doesnt.?  meeee!  i SO dont like birthdays!
All my past birthdays i remember..havent been special..at all! err..what an unusual thing to say..innit?! 'cos usually people are super duper happy on their birthdays!
For me..a birthday is like every other day.. mom wakes me up at the usual time..Study/read like any other day..listen to my mom's long lecture on what i DIDN'T DO today..watch a very blah movie which my dad thinks is  *classic*[air quotes].
Yea..its like just another day..with nothing special to expect..except for some calls from the closest of my friends and a lot of FB wall posts and every random person asking me for a "birthday treat".
And about my birthday that passed days ago,I was home alone that day. not that i dont like being home alone..in fact i love being home alone! I mean..cummon..its my BIRTHDAY!! I dont wanna be alone on my birthday? And I thought  parents weren't supposed to yell at their kids on their birthdays! at least my friends' parents dont do that? Yea. I was SO constantly yelled-at..on my birthday. And also..I asked my mom for a huge teddy on my birthday..which obviously she didnt buy me, for which i'm still pissed off with her. The b'day gurl GOT TO get everything she asks for..remember? :(

"my-worst-nightmare-come-true" day.

 I've never really liked having pets. I've always been scared of  the whole of kingdom Animalia [yea..even some human beings..=P] since i-dunno-when. Someone sees a cute kitten n they go all "aww.." but i'll be all "uggh.." . Kittens look cute in pics allright. But in real?.. err..i'm not really sure about that..I dont know how this so-called "animal-o-phobia"  developed in me. And i dont really remember being scared of animals as a kid?.. yea..we used to have loads of cats at my dad's house at our native place..and i loved them as a kid..I used to love the "cat-fur" that stuck to my cot each time a cat sits on my bed. I've even dared to poke a momma cat on its stomach. :) [err..well..the cat scratched me for that though.. =P ]
Whatever happened to me..i dont know..And now i'm scared of animals big time! And dogs too..omg!.. I'm scared of those well-groomed pet dogs too..let alone street dogs.. =P 
recently,my worst nightmare..of being stuck in a place full of animals..actually happened!

The story goes like this..

It was when i had to visit a natorupathist's place.As i entered the compound,I was greeted by two hens perched upon the sofa in the car porch. The whole place smelled of hens.
When we neared the half open door, I caught sight of a doggie peeping through the door.
*RUNN* my brain ordered..and off i ran to the front gate when i heard another doggie barking furiously from another corner of the compound.  
ANOTHER DOG? I'M SO DEAD!.. I leaned closer to the wall. 
*phew* okay.. at least I'm nowhere near it..And that was right when I spotted another hen [a bigger and uglier one this time] standing majestically on top of the compound wall i was leaning to.
*Damn..Now what?! *
But all thanks to my reflexes..I quickly ducked forward..or that thing would have jumped onto my head!.
This totally freaked me out. How come there are no human beings around here?.. :O 
Damn..I ran out of that place and swore to myself that I'd never even go near there again.

:'(

well..this post is actually an obituary..for my dear old computer which died out a couple of months back. i have no clue where to begin from!! :( cos he was so dear to me..the comp.. :(
now..replacing my dear "old" (literally!) comp is a young n smart pc with a wide LCD screen. and i dont know why, but i hate him to the core! :( i miss you..my old comp..:(

so..here goes five things i miss about you. <3*

1. the poor sound systems. the loose contacts. i miss the way i used to be annoyed when my favorite song stops just like that because of those stewpid loose contacts with the sound system.
n now..when i sit back..enjoying the songs from this comp,i wait for the music to stop (n for me to be annoyed! lol..) but that never happens..this new comp is so perfect..dammit! x(

2.The poor monitor. the way it goes all black..abruptly..when i'm watching this favourite video of mine.. =P
the new screen is so wide that it takes like about a minute to just look from one end to the other! :( my old comp's screen was so small n cute. i miss that! :(

3.He improved my typing skills! :)* i love him hell a lot for that! <3
the letters in the keyboard werent visible..the whole keyboard was so worn out! due to my constant hitting n scratching on it of course.. =P n i had to make wild guesses on which key is for which letter.. =P lol.

4.Ow..n the CPU thingy..i used to hit him real hard at times..:( the UPS that gave weird screeching noises whenever the power went off..i miss him big time! :((

5.The mouse with coloured lights. :) which i looked at,with great curiosity,as a kid..

Well..that's it i guess. :( i miss you so much!!
you were so imperfect..and wonderfully weird. :)

Arent there any critics around?. :O

bah..my blog's been so *dead* these days..innit?. :(
People like caroline have been constantly pissing me off asking me when i'm gonna update my blog..and i'm tired breaking all the promises i made to her..so..caro..here you go! :) 
Okay..now that i've decided to update my blog..One thing that struck me was that i was totally topic less..what to write about?. :(  I almost gave up the idea of updating my blog and started going through the comments when a thought struck me. THERE WERE NO CRITICISMS! only comments like "i love your blog".."its ossum"..n all that.. :( .. everyone needs a change..dont they?. it annoyed me..like totally!
 I remember my dad happily reading the criticisms about his article in a magazine..that surprised me back then..how come he was happy that someone criticized him?. :O weird.. i thought.
but now i guess can understand that.

Inviting healthy criticisms. :) :)

 Love you all! <3

My diary :)

i was searching through for my i pod in my cupboard..and it was a whole lot of mess..all my clothes,posters,wallet,slam books and millions of other teeny-weeny things had formed a huge heap inside my cupboard.i was shaking and shifting that huge heap of my stuff when something fell down with a thud.i looked down to see the long-forgotten diary of mine. [oww..dun think dat i'm a regular diary writer or anythn! :p i hav taken resolutions for lyk..millions of times..dat i'd write my in my diary everyday..i'd either be lazy about writing or else i'd just forget that i've got 2 write..i srsly envy people who write diaries daily..i wish i could do dat too! :( ] 

then i flipped through the pages of my diary..it had all kinds of things..lyrics from my favourite song,graffiti,my thoughts and what not.? :P and i bet you wont believe me when i tell you this.but the first few entries in my diary were written when i was nine or something..:P seriously! [now..isnt dat kinda weird.? keeping the same diary for lyk..7 years or something.?and i'm just waiting for dis diary to get over so that i can just take my favourite diary out n start writing in that! i hav a whole lot of diaries wimme..:P :) :D well..me finishing that diary.? i dun think that's gonna happen..that would take..years..decades.. centuries..:Por whatever..a very long time,that's what i mean..]
My diary is so very special as it has my entries as a nine year old..and till now..oops..dont think that its a gigantic diary to fill my whole school life into it.its like,a collection of,very random,discontinuous entries..and its almost like 5 or 6 entries per year..yea..seriously!! :P [by now,you'd noe dat i'm a lazybone! :P ;]
and the things i've written in there..omg..they're all so embarrassing! [i get embarrassed with almost everything..but this isnt like that! there r some real embarrassing stuff in there..trust me!! ]
but even though all those entries are super-embarrassing,they are really special in some weird way.its almost like i have a time turner with me and i am reliving my past years..:) I laughed at the stewpid and silly things i used to cry for,as a kid. [when i was nine,i had a contest with my classmate for the maximum number of "good"s on my notebook..and sadly,i lost the conto by the difference of one "good"..:( :P
and i kinda caused a havoc in the class.i cried n made scenes n what not.? :P
and then in 6th grade,i cried because i was made the class monitor! ]
my stomache ached..laughing at all this.! :p  
but some entries..i almost cried reading them..seriously..the fun i had with my old friends..my old school..life at chalakudy.. how much miss all that!
And it felt really weird when i realized that i laughed reading the things i cried about..and i cried reading about the fun..the laughter! [now..isnt this real bizarre.? ]

And i sat on my bed for god knows how long..reading..thinkin'..staring at the pages..:)
ow..my diary is truly amazing..:P I could actually see the tiny little me grow reading that! [or lets say.."evolve"] into what i am now.. :)